a journal

Hello!

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 17:24:23 GMT

It's been awhile since I've posted anything but one-liner comments. :) Today I'm bored, waiting for my next class to begin...

My Life Right Now:

Job: Looking for one, but I have a NICE option that I'll try out on Thursday.

School: B's? I don't know what I'll make this semester. It's been a difficult season of life! I'm not really worried much about my grades this time. I have a high-enough GPA that it shouldn't mess things up.

Walk with God: Lately I'm learning a lot about myself, and I'm learning a lot about God. I'm waking up earlier to spend time with Him, and I want to get into a routine so that my quiet times won't be forgotten.

Friends: I'm the scum of the Earth! But I HAVE been writing letters to some long-lost friends. That makes me feel a LITTLE less like a butthead...

Love Life: Heehee...I don't have one yet, but I have an interest. :) You've had to keep reading about him in my recent posts, though, so I won't bore you with many more details. My emotions go up and down with him; I can never really tell how much I like him. (I only post when I'm happy that I'm talking with him.) This week I've been happy about him.

Tax Refund: I have a few ideas...Going to see Kaity in NY, starting a wedding dress fund, (Don't worry; I don't like Josh THAT much--I've been thinking about starting a dress fund for awhile now.) or simply keeping it for car maintenance, etc.

Easter: was great...Grandma and Pop arrived in GA on Easter day, but it was also just a really awesome day with God.

Modeling: I have an interesting new opportunity, if it's not a scam. I'm looking into it...

In General: I'm doing great! God is good! :)

To You: I hope you have a lovely day today! God bless!

Awww...

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 19:48:10 GMT

I like Josh. He's so nice and...nice. LOL. Just kidding---that's not all I like about him. He's SO godly! And he's funny and intuitive and patient and handsome and Africa-happy. :) Those are great qualities!

Uh...I'd post a picture, but I'm LiveJournally incompetent and don't know how. :)

Olive Journal

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 13:41:35 GMT

A lot of times, when I'm trying to type in "www.livejournal.com," I accidentally add an "O".

They should make an OliveJournal. I would use it! Would you?

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 01:28:40 GMT

Have you ever written a journal entry for the sole purpose of collecting comments from your friends?

Josh

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 16:14:05 GMT

He called me last night. We talked for an hour and a half! :)

I'm having trouble getting used to the idea of me being in a relationship, since I HAVEN'T BEEN IN ONE for 22 years. LOL. I didn't think about that; 22 years. No wonder. I guess it's all right if it takes awhile to get used to! He's very patient and kind. (We're not really in a relationship yet, in case you were wondering.)

He talks a lot! We talked about Africa and our families and stuff. By then it was like 11, so we prayed and got off the phone. It was cool. :)

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 02:06:06 GMT

Heya! Kaity's back to NY now. We had a lot of fun together. I was so happy to see her. And I cried a couple of times while she was here. But it's all a good thing. Still prayin'!

Josh and I e-mailed back and forth tonight! :) And...*giggle*...he asked me if I had a cell phone. I said, "No! Don't call me yet!" (but I said it in a nice, playful way). He's fine not calling yet. He's fine taking it slow. That's one reason I like him. So, yay! Tonight was fun! I'm all smiles! :) :) :)

Yay for Me!

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:08:22 GMT

Davey's back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so happy!!! :) I cuddled him the whole way home.
And Josh keeps talking to me. And he's STILL pretty smart and handsome and funny and all.
And Kaity's coming to visit on Thursday! YAAAAYYYYY!!! :)

So, yay for me! I hope you are all doing well. Or passable, at least. I'm going to TRY to communicate more with my close friends by phone, etc. (I hope I do!) LOL. Love to all...

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 04:20:03 GMT

There is ONE thing that is distressing me greatly. It really shouldn't. Oh well.
I left my stuffed animal donkey, Davey, at my Aunt Betty's house. :( I miss him! He's my most valued possession!!

I'm pretty psyched.

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 04:17:57 GMT

Good news all around here...

Kaity's coming back to visit next Thursday. YAAAAAYYYY!!!

I just spent a thrilling couple of days with my great cousin (and I mean "really cool"; not like "great uncle" or anything...), and part of that was spent with my great great aunt (I mean "really cool great aunt"). Have I confused you yet? :)

Josh is being patient with my dumbness about entering a relationship. Really we aren't in a relationship yet; that's what he's being patient about.

So, cool. Everything's good here. God and I are still talking through A LOT of things. And we still have A LOT of talking to do, but it's going well.

Over and out!

Yay!

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 14:43:58 GMT

Here's a picture of Kristen and Kristy! Aren't they lovely? :)
We had a great time in NC!

Latest News

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 22:22:17 GMT

This Spring Break, my cousin Kristy and I are going to NC to visit Aunt Betty. In fact (Kristen!), she'll be here tomorrow (Sunday) afternoon! We'll probably be back in town Tuesday evening. She has to be back by Wed. night for work.
Not much news on Josh--my eHarmony dude--since I last posted. He's still tall, still godly, still cute, etc. Hmmm...I can't really say much else about him yet. Neither of us have any idea if we're supposed to be together. But we're both praying about it. So that's cool.
God and I are really working things out. I'm finally getting back into my regular life. I'm finally not crying every day. I got to talk to Kaity today. She sounded happy. I'm happy for her. I'm also still praying for her, of course.
That's all I can think of right now. Toodles!

SO WEIRD!!! (in a VERY good way!)

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 04:27:45 GMT

Recall my entry about how I just knew I was going to be a girlfriend someday soon.
You may want to sit down for this.
I'm talking to a guy on eHarmony who is everything I mentioned in that entry and more. He's very funny and bright and handsome and tall and HE WANTS TO GO LIVE IN AFRICA!!! :) :) :) Oh, there is one thing he ISN'T. He's not the coolest Christian guy around. That's because he's not around. He lives in Columbus, Ohio. Ah, well...can't have everything. But seriously, he's SO cool. I hope that God is leading the two of us into a relationship.
The weird thing is, I was just on eHarmony because I needed a distraction. I logged on around Valentine's Day, so I can't remember if it was because I needed to take my mind off of Kaity or if it was because I was lonely on the 14th. He showed up as a match, but I really had no way of communicating because I'm broke and can't afford membership. He was the best match, in my opinion, and then he requested communication! Out of 15 guys, HE does! Yay! So I talked to Mom about it and she threw her AmEx at me as fast as she could. (You know Mom.) Heeheehee...Now I have a useless 3 month membership on eHarmony, but it's quite worth it so far!!! :)
Gotta go. More later...

I'm getting tired of crying!

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 04:14:19 GMT

Thank you, everybody, for your comments. They help me a lot.
We took Kaity and her relatives to the airport this morning. Bye-bye Kaity! Sadie and I are having a lot of trouble today. We're sticking close together. The whole family is kind of inside-out right now. We're (almost) all emotional and worn out.
I got to talk to a small group of girls at my new youth group; this time THEY were ministering to ME. :) They prayed for me, my family, and especially for Kaity and her family. It was a very good thing.

Thanks again for the consolation!

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 03:33:43 GMT

Kaity's leaving. She's going to New York.
I'm very sad. I'm very sad for her. Going to New York is a very good thing for her, we believe. But it will be hard for everybody. She will miss her siblings. They will miss her. And we will miss her. She comes to our house almost every day! I've never thought about what it would be like without her around all the time.
I'm still processing a lot. I've stopped crying every few hours, but I haven't stopped crying. I have a lot to talk to God about, but I don't want to talk to Him right now. I know now what my youth pastor was trying to tell me awhile ago--it's okay to be mad at God. I didn't believe him and said that that would be a terrible sin. But now that I'm asking God angry questions, I see that it's different than I thought it would be. I still love God, and I know that I DON'T know what's going on (and that He does), and I see that He is waiting like a gentleman for me to stop yelling. He's not just waiting, actually. I know He's crying for Kaity too. I know He's crying for Kaity, Brian, Daniel, and Sally. And He's crying for everybody who is grieving.
I've been talking to God some. He's been talking too. We're working things out. It's still hard.

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 04:50:45 GMT

"She made me a present!?! I AM an asshole!" --Adam Sandler, The Wedding Singer

Sorry to everyone! I've been an asshole. :)
I know, that's strong language for me. But it's true. (It's true a lot lately, unfortunately. Sorry.) You know what I've been going through. That explains the stress and edginess. It doesn't excuse it though.
I'll probably stay on LJ for a while. I may not read all the time, but I'll try to keep up.
Thanks for all the nice comments and personal talks and everything. You guys are awesome.

Love, aslan_fan

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 14:21:27 GMT

My friend's Mom died last year, from cancer. Last night her Dad died. She's a teenager. :(
Please pray for her.

One More Personality Note

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 20:16:41 GMT

One other thing about me: I DO like comments on my posts! :) They always make me smile...

Personality Note

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 20:14:47 GMT

I normally don't like categorizing myself or others, but I was happy to find out that I have the same Kiersey (<--spelling??) Personality Results as C.S. Lewis and Jane Austen. (And as for fictional characters, I'm a lot like Mr. Darcy and Gandalf. Who knew that Jane was writing MR. DARCY as her soul-tied character??? I thought for sure it was Lizzy!)
I feel smart now. :)

Hello!

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 22:36:50 GMT

In the very near future, I am going to be a girlfriend. I just know. My boyfriend will be the coolest Christian around; he'll be ridiculously funny, he'll have a lovely smile, and he'll be smart enough to hold intellectual conversations with me and the rest of my family! Woohoo! Can't wait! Actually, yes I can. I have been for 22 years; what's a few more?
For now, I'll work on being a HERO in God's eyes. Yep. I want to shine for my Jesus, and I want to give Him glory for giving me life and love.
So...What do heroes do? Should I watch Disney's Hercules to find out? Should I read a bunch of biographies? Should I pick up a How-To-Become-A-Hero book from B&N? Hmmm... I think I'll talk to God. He knows better than anyone else what heroes are made of. (Preposition at the end of the sentence--Blegh!)
Hey! I hope you have an EXCELLENT day! You too can be (and probably already are) God's hero! Up, up, and awaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy....."

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 20:24:06 GMT

Happy Day-After-Your-Birthday, Bel! I had a lot of fun with you last night! I wish you would come over more often. I guess I always think you're too busy, but that's not true! I'll call you sometimes. :)
You are such an exciting person to be around. You're fun and loving, and your conversation is stimulating. I love you so much, and I hope you felt very loved on your special day. :) Lots of love!!! ~aslan_fan

Heeheehee...

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 03:39:25 GMT

I like short posts like Alariya's... "Aaaaahh! Just Grrrrr.....That is all." They are almost more telling than three paragraphs! :)

Love to all of my Hurting Friends

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 16:13:52 GMT

I love you all so much. All of you seem to be going through hard times right now. I want to come visit you, Alariya. I hate depression. I want to love you.
I want to love you all! And I DO!!! Many hugs and kisses and prayers to everybody!

Hello Everybody Who Reads my LJ!

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 04:56:27 GMT

Guess what! I have a journal near my bed, which is probably why I am so sporadic in my writing here. I love to read your comments though! I'm happy for you Bel! And for you, Alariya! Also, Alariya, I have something for you that you will like A LOT. But I have to know when you are available for me to come over and give it to you. Lemme know! :) Happy Birthday, Nikare! (That rhymes!) God blessings to all of you, my friends! Catcha latah!

Yay for my Friends!

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 16:31:00 GMT

I am so happy that Belenen loves all of her Christmas presents! And I am so happy that Alariya is getting great classes and great job opportunities!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!! God is good, huh?

We had a lot of fun in Florida. We only spent two nights in Daytona. (Oh well. See, Bel? You didn't miss too much.) While THERE, we played Monopoly (of course), Pit (the game Bel and Frenetik got us), and Wise and Otherwise (also a tradition). That game flopped though. We'll have to try again next time. Soon, hopefully. Wow. I'm sure no one cares about my list of board games played in Florida. Moving on...

I got to work out at Curves with my Grandma (in south Florida--Pembroke Pines). That was so much fun. Diva music, 30 second stations, sore muscles later...it was great. I also got to go to the beach, go on a nice walk near the airport strip, go on a boat ride in PopPop's and Grandma's backyard canal, search for alligators in the Everglades, and meet a cousin I hadn't met before, Haley. She's SO cute!!! Overall, the trip was great. And my sister Sadie was a blessing the entire trip. With everybody "coupling off," she and I spent more time together than usual. She's been maturing so much this last year. Yay!

Okay. I'm done. And happy. Hope you are too!

Today I'm sick.

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 17:16:34 GMT

Oh well! Happens to the best of us! I'm still reading Mansfield Park, and I'm still making my bed fairly regularly. I know, that's really exciting news. Here's some more interesting news: I'm going to Florida in a few days! Yay! But this time, I don't get to go swim with the manatees. 'Cuz WE'RE going to East Florida, and THEY'RE all hanging out in West Florida. Ah, well. There are other winters to go see my favorite animal friends!
I'm excited about seeing my extended family! Yay yay yay! I'll try to get over my cold fast so that I don't get my cousins sick. And guess what, all my close friends, I get to see Kristy and you don't...Nanny nanny boo boo! :) Just kidding. I'm sad for you. Kristy is the best.
Okay. I'm gonna go read more about Fanny and Edmund, and I hope to get over my cold VERY soon. Have a great, healthy day!!!